Odd and hilarious times. Right now, I’m in the basement of a hostel having slept – after a shut in – in the laundry room. So my comment of the day - I have incontrovertible evidence that love is a sham... My dear readers for the sake of privacy and personal boundaries I can’t fully divulge the intricacies of this story, but I will say... I just tried the most romantic move of my 33 year life. EPIC FAIL! I told someone I’ve known a long time that they were perfectly imperfect in my eyes- a position after much thought I arrived at - and that I wanted to meet them in Trafalager Square at 3 pm. No show... I waited. I have to say, this moment is changing. I always believed that if I really tried, I would always be able to make what I want happen. I couldn’t, I can’t... I’m just a guy walking alone in a dark, dank, and for the most part scary world. Reality is not about connection and coming together. The truth is it was always a game and it always will be. So now there is comfort in knowing I’m alone again. I want to be alone without a concern for how I am regarded. I want to just write my thoughts with no care how they are perceived... I want to be authentic. Without fear maybe art can be created... after yesterday, I know no fear anymore.
Read this again a couple hours on. Pretty emo... :P , but I decided not to delete it because the sentiment is authentic and captures that moment.
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